one step closer to the....

Here's a perfect song to describe what I feel right now. Here it goes:

"One Step Closer"

I cannot take this anymore
Saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
You'll find that out anyway

Just like before...

[Chorus:]
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
I'm about to break

I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again

Just like before...

[Chorus]

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break

Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up
Shut up when I'm talking to you
Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up

I'm about to BREAK

[Chorus]

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break



That sounds so strong, but come on just concentrate with the lyrics and not on the angst of the song. It totally speaks for what I feel now!

and so i hate it....

I notice this blog is more on I love and I hate, oh whatever, that's me. It's either I hate you or I love you. If you don't fall into either of the two, then... you know the answer.

Ok, this time, it's about HATE. For the longest time ever, I've been very vocal that I hate to open my friendster account, because for some reason, I always see something that will disappoint me: a picture, a shoutout, the date the person last login haaay even the smallest details, I swear! But, here I am still stubborn enough to open my account.

Alright, I'll defend myself first, I refrain from opening my FS account, in fact, it's been months, I think that I haven't open it. Not until the last few days, to put my blog url as my shoutout, and yes few minutes ago, when I read Lineth's message that she's enjoying my blog "daw" (haha thanks Lineth). Then, I surfed a little until voila this picture boomed to my face and syet it hits me like a knife. Yeah right that sounds corny but that's what I really felt, I was stunned and wanted to be mad really really mad. dammit! I hate it!

Why do I have to see it? I am a firm believer that what you don't know wont hurt you. But come on, that's stupid I know. Hay hay hay.

Everything just keep on pushing me to hate you. I am about to lose grip, I don't know. May be I will, finally.