breaking the habit

As everyone knows, yesterday was my last day at Nuffnang. I'm sad. I'm gonna miss everyone. I'm sad that I wasn't able to say goodbye to everyone in MY and SG. No matter how I wanted, I felt it's kinda awkward if I send a mass mail to them saying, 'I'm gonna leave folks since I know that my boss doesn't like me'.... hah! that was hard but ofcourse I didn't do it to protect "my boss", I never intended to create buzz or anything about me leaving. I'm gonna leave , and so be it. See? I'm a fair person, and I know how to respect.

So, today, first day of my life without Nuffnang. This morning, my eyes were trying hard to open around 8am, the usual time I wake up for work, but I fought it and told myself "you can sleep longer, no work today!" But damn it, the eyes are just so stubborn at didn't want to sleep anymore.

Now, I'm online, talking to people from work.....haaaaaaaaa!!!! I feel like crying actually! It's like the habit is so hard to break. My computer screen is full of ym chats of people from the office not to mention that while typing this entry, Janelle called. Grrr. this is gonna be hard!

One day, and I'm missing them so badly! sigh. I don't have enough strength now to fight the feeling.

Yet another goodbye..

Seven months ago, I decided to look for a job wherein I could stay for years. A job that I would like... A job that I would believe in. Then, Nuffnang came.

I always say I believe in Nuffnang. Three months have passed without me noticing it, considering the fact that I have this 3-month syndrome. From then, I realized, I am actually enjoying the work. Then, 6th month came, the turning point. All my hopes of staying atleast a year in a company was vanished. I am a loyal person, specially to things, to people that I love. But, if I see something wrong or I was wronged, I cannot do anything but move on and move out.

I'm sad about leaving. I'm gonna miss the people here in the office.... Mark, Roanna, Fitz, -members of our team who I believe were all true people, The AE's of Outcomm, not only my favorite Janelle, but all of them, Apple, Ms.Carol, Mina, Prue, Cyrus, Sir Joseph, Sir Troy, who is always smiling... ahaha I know I so love them,what can I do? haha. I'm gonna miss Lorna, the ever-reliable Lorna, the newbie, Paulo, the messengers who always buy me food once I can't go out... Kuya Luigi(haha) and everyone else.... Hay. I'm gonna miss them for sure.

This is why I hate goodbyes. Missing people that became part of my everyday routine really makes me sad.

But, come on there's no goodbyes really, for sure, we'll cross our paths again. Yeah right!

I don't want to make this entry more mushy, it might cause the tears, and I can't.

One thing for sure, no matter what has been the outcome, I'm not regretting anything as I believe, this taught me a very important lesson.

the monkey won and so be it....

The tigress never intended to get rid of the monkey.
She just wanted to stay and do her thing.


She's looking for a place to call home
But she knows from the very start
that the monkey reigns the place.
So, respect was given

Tigress don't like the monkey
However, the monkey doesn't like the tigress either.

They were civil and professional
Or so the tigress thought.

Until the judgment day came.
Monkey said Tigress have not yet proven herself.

From then, Tigress realized monkey was never fair
From the very beginning.

Tigress never intended to get rid of the monkey.

Now, the tigress is ready to move on.

the assassin..

It's like you're expecting to be shot... You already imagined the scenario.... The person who will blow.... The pain you will feel... The gracious way to stop the blood from falling.... but then again, when the moment arrived, you see everything you imagined, you can't help but think, am I still dreaming? The thing is, you felt the pain, it cuts deep, worst than what you imagined. Bulshit, the dream has come true... I was shot.

I'm in pain.

I'm in shock.

There's so many things I wanted to say, but I decided to shut up.

Threw one question.

Received a painful answer.

Looked up.

Composed myself.

Mind and heart both shaking.

Shut up until I cleared my mind.

Then, I'll talk. Words that I know will save me from so much shame that I am feeling now.

But, only one thing I'm sure now. The pain is unbearable.

It's not the pain of the bullet, but the fact that the person really did shoot me.

I know I don't like the person, but at the back of my mind, I was still hoping for a positive, civil, and fair judgment.

Well, I should have learned my lesson. Life is never fair.

Sigh.

Ahhhhhhhhhh...........

Painful!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Champion

Oh my gosh. I just came from the pantry and I picked the newspaper, there was a full-page Talk n Text ad and I was like "Sir (to Sir Joseph who was there as well) champion na ba Talk n Text?" and he replied "oo kagabi apat lamang"....

and again I'll say OH MY GOSH!

Shucks so sad that I wasn't able to watch it last night and instead there I was watching a very jologs film, the worst film I think...Yeah right, you guessed it right, I don't want to mention the title anymore because just the thought of me watching it gives me goosebumps, hahaha but it was Lisa's(my cousin from Japan) request. So, yeah go ahead laugh at me now.

Alright, back to my story, so there, last night was the Game 7 the last game of the series.... so sad that I wasn't able to watch their glorious moment, but whatever, they won,Talk n Text is the champion, and that's what's important.

According to Sir Joseph, Mac-mac, the Captain Hook was Final's MVP, oh how sweet is that? Mac-mac's first championship in PBA and he was the Finals MVP, very sweet!

Surely, there's gonna be replays, oh I hope so...because I really wanna see their faces rejoicing.

Again, congratulations to Mac-mac and the rest of Talk n Text team! I knew you'll be the champion!

Continuation of the Story....

Here goes the continuation of my Love/Hate Part2 entry. Now, I'm done with the love part right?! Hmmm now comes the beefy side. haha. Well, so much of my "kontrabida" side but what can I do?....a stone was thrown at me, what do you think shall I do throw a bread in return? oh please I'm not a marytyr nor a plastic individual who'll act as if it didn't hurt just to look good in front of people.

I was hurt that's why I'm shouting, now bear the annoying sound.

How many times have I mentioned that my motto in life is "what goes around comes around"? So many times actually, now, if I'm acting bad it's because you did me wrong.

Coz, one thing I really hate is when people thinks they can just hate people who are good to them, thinking anytime they can go back to the original set-up. Well, maybe you're wrong, well shall I rephrase that, you're very wrong!

I'm a good friend, but once you did me wrong, sorry I'm such a bad girl. Now, I'll stop. This thing isn't so much of a big deal for me to talk about it the whole week, I was hurt by what happened but I said my piece so that's enough besides I was not hurt by the person. So, that's it!

Love/Hate Part 2

Due to insistent public demand, yuck! hahaha well, seriously this is due to comments I received about the latest love/hate entry. If you will look closely, there were no comments posted but believe me there are lotsa comments from people, and take note even though those who's not been targeted were making their itsy-bitsy comments. Now, the pleasure is mine: So, here goes more of my love/hate entry.

I will talk about love first.... Alright, it may sound plastic or something, but I do appreciate people as in every little gestures and every little thing they do. Okay, I think I was overwhelmed by the frog last Friday.... I didn't expect it to be that way with the two of us, I mean after a long time, I felt actually at ease with him. Okay enough of that, I think because of that I'm starting to be confused again, hay so many frogs on my way. How will I ever choose the right one? haha.
Then, who else do I love these days? Hmmm, oh yeah the two Capricorns! I love Capricorns, i mean there's something about our sign that makes us bond, there are certain attributes that we all have. Like Ms.Carol, another AE here in Outcomm, I mean we're not close or anything but based on the stories of people, I can say I love her personality! It's like a typical Capricorn, fierce! Plus, well, undoubtedly, she is fierce! Bow! hahaha.. See, I already like her without having the chance to bond with her. But, infairness, everytime we see each other I can feel her aura, her Capricorn aura...specially when she says "ei musta girl?" hahaha sounds like my favorite friend, another Caps Colet. Then, the second of the two Capricorns that I am talking about, Apple, who happens to be another AE of Outcomm haha. Looks like, I'm starting to like the Sales group.... But, honestly, Apple is one typical Capricorn. I cannot mention the reason why I said that though, but I must say she's just like me and the other Capricorns that I know, that's why I like her. haha plus she's a Tiger as well.



Sigh. My love area is long but whatever, that's what I feel this time. How about the hate part? Hmm.... I hate people who... hay. Let me discuss that tomorrow, I don't think I'm in the mood. So tomorrow, the continuation of my Love/Hate Part 2..hahah corny I know!

Learning lesson

I mentioned last time that I am currently hooked on Grey's Anatomy series, and yes I still am struggling to finish the whole series. haha

Anyway, I mentioned that because the series teaches so many lessons and I love it. One particular thing I remember was their Christmas episode.

The episode showed that even though friends, even lovers have their differences. Like Izzy, George and Meredith live in one roof but not all of them believe in celebrating Christmas. Izzy, is pro-Christmas while the two didn't really care much. However, to support their friend, George and Meredith decided to look excited for Christmas.

On the other side, Burke and Cristina who at that time were just starting their relationship and decided to live together easily found their differences. Burke, wanted to celebrate Christmas and actually believes Santa Claus, a fact that Cristina couldn't believe to the point she laughed at this idea. As she self-proclaimed she hates Christmas and Santa Claus for that matter.

My point now is, okay let's say you're Burke who believes in Santa Claus and you found out that your friend strongly opposed the idea of Santa Claus and in fact, abhor the fact that someone believes in Santa Claus? Would it be fair if Burke dumped you for this reason? Is it acceptable to say to your friend "just so you know I hate people who doesn't believe that there is Santa Claus" and hate her like she committed a crime or anyting... Oh come what a shame!!! Where's the logic there?

Let's now turn the wheel, let's say you're Cristina who doesn't believe Santa Claus and your boyfriend or even a friend for that matter says he believes in Santa Claus? Is this enough reason to hate your friend? Just because your friend do believe in what you don't?

See? My point here is that life is never fair, whoever said it is? People are created with different features, and preferences. We just have to learn how to respect one another. Your friend doesn't believe in this then so be it. Coz, if you gonna hate your friends with opposing views all the time, may be one day you'll wake up with no one.

Some people might say, "alone is fine", okay I respect your point, but one question have you respected others point? See, it's all a cycle, what goes around will definitely come back around.

Oh I have to watch Grey's Anatomy more. :)

Championship for Captain Hook

It's Talk n Text vs. Alaska Aces at the KFC PBA Philippine Cup Finals.

Alaska Aces started it strong winning the first 2 games in the Best of Seven Finals and of course as a Mac-mac Cardona loyalist that I am, I was kinda sad but I knew they'll bounce back and yes oh yes they proved that they wanted to taste the most-coveted championship trophy this time winning the 3rd and 4th games. It was sweet, then Alaska woke up from what happened and won the 5th game in the Finals. Last Sunday, Mac-mac and the rest of the Tropang Texters showed their eagerness to win this as they were able to tie the series into 3-3, bringing the championship to Game 7. Woah, exciting? Typically Mac-mac, typically Captain Hook.

I've been a Mac-mac Cardona loyalist for the longest time, since he was playing on UAAP... I mean, I know I am a Tamaraw but once the opponent was him, I transferred side. hahaha. I remember, always asking to give me the Men's Basketball assignment so I could have sidecourt passes of the game specially the championship of FEU vs.DLSU and I can't help myself but to shout once Mac-mac launched his infamous hook shot. I love it and still loving it. One more factor I love about him were his buzzer-beater shots that brought his team to winning..Oh there were lotsa instances that he was the hero!

Today, I'm not able to follow the PBA religiously like UAAP, but my loyalty to the Captain is still alive, I wish and I am praying that they win, specially this could be his first championship in PBA. But whatever happens, he's still Captain Hook, he's still the best, yeah right many people says he's mayabang, but whatever, he's great! hahaha

Shopaholic Moment

For sure, many people now heard that the book Confessions of a Shopaholic is now a movie. Great! What's greater is that Nuffnang is now running a contest for shopaholic girls out there... and now beat this, Nuffnang is giving away a limited Gucci bag to the blogger with best shopaholic entry.... Yupyup, a Gucci bag. Fun? No, it' FABULOUS.

Hahaha, I am so excited for the Nuffnangers and I know they sure gonna like this contest. So, for you out there who wants to join the contest, please refer to this link and who knows, you might be the fabulous owner of this Gucci bag.

http://www.nuffnang.com.ph/blog/2009/02/05/my-shopaholic-confession-contest/

Good luck everybody!!!!

love/hate

Oh come on I think I have used that title gazillion times now. But, whatever, I wanna use it now. haha.

I've mentioned so many times now that there's only two things for me it's either i love a person or i hate 'em, if you don't fall into either of the two, then it means you just don't exist, atleast not in my world which I think many will react, "so what" well, I said FOR ME, not for you. hahaha

Oh well, first talk about HATE.... Oh I'm such a hater, well, because what goes around comes around.... I hate people who hate me period. See? I just turn the table at them. But seriously, I hate people who talks and talks and talks as if they are the best in the world, when the truth is the only field where they are good at is just blabbing. Oh I know so many people like that.... "gosh I'm like this, I'm like that" oh come on why so much of the talk? Is it because of the thing they call insecurity?? Ooooh is it painful? Well, who tells truth doesn't hurt? Ok, I get the "when you have it, flaunt it" idea. But, please make sure you have the "IT" factor, because sometimes, or shall I say most of the times, good people are silent worker and that people who keeps on insisting to others that they are good, are not good, really. All right, I said I'm such a hater, right?! I mean it.

If I'm a hater at times, I'm a loyal lover, and when I love a person, it means, loyalty. ahahhaa. I'm not just talking about love as in l-o-v-e, but love in general. I love people who shares things with me, those people who views life the way I view it. I love people who cares. I love people because I love them, period. haha. I have a list of favorite persons in the world, and I added one person to it. Janelle, the pioneer AE of Outcomm, the queen, has just been added to my list of favorite persons in the world. I mean, I love her! hahaha at first, I think there's no way I'm gonna like her but voila, she's my favorite now....

So, that's it, people I hate and people I love. bow.

February....

All right, seems like days are running fast, so fast that it's actually February now. Gawd. That was a quick one. Before I knew it, it's already the month that I've been waiting for. Now, few days and I'll be deciding.

I am looking forward for this month for so many reasons and God knows my growth will be depending on the decisions to be made this month. I know for sure that there are always reasons for everything. I have strong faith and that's enough to keep me standing.

However, one thing I noticed, I always feel nostalgic once this stage is near-approaching. It's hard to think about the past because it gives you pain for two reasons; 1. it's painful to think that you can't bring the past back. (no way. because no matter how hard it is, I believe you shouldn't regret anything) 2. it's hard to think of happy moments because eventually it'll hurt you afterwards. Sigh. But I guess, past is always included on your future. To be able to move forward, you shall appreciate your past without bitterness.

Now, I'm about to make a decision again, nothing to worry about though. I trust myself enough. Once my heart says no, it's really a no. And when my mind says not anymore it means move on.