breaking the habit

As everyone knows, yesterday was my last day at Nuffnang. I'm sad. I'm gonna miss everyone. I'm sad that I wasn't able to say goodbye to everyone in MY and SG. No matter how I wanted, I felt it's kinda awkward if I send a mass mail to them saying, 'I'm gonna leave folks since I know that my boss doesn't like me'.... hah! that was hard but ofcourse I didn't do it to protect "my boss", I never intended to create buzz or anything about me leaving. I'm gonna leave , and so be it. See? I'm a fair person, and I know how to respect.

So, today, first day of my life without Nuffnang. This morning, my eyes were trying hard to open around 8am, the usual time I wake up for work, but I fought it and told myself "you can sleep longer, no work today!" But damn it, the eyes are just so stubborn at didn't want to sleep anymore.

Now, I'm online, talking to people from work.....haaaaaaaaa!!!! I feel like crying actually! It's like the habit is so hard to break. My computer screen is full of ym chats of people from the office not to mention that while typing this entry, Janelle called. Grrr. this is gonna be hard!

One day, and I'm missing them so badly! sigh. I don't have enough strength now to fight the feeling.

Yet another goodbye..

Seven months ago, I decided to look for a job wherein I could stay for years. A job that I would like... A job that I would believe in. Then, Nuffnang came.

I always say I believe in Nuffnang. Three months have passed without me noticing it, considering the fact that I have this 3-month syndrome. From then, I realized, I am actually enjoying the work. Then, 6th month came, the turning point. All my hopes of staying atleast a year in a company was vanished. I am a loyal person, specially to things, to people that I love. But, if I see something wrong or I was wronged, I cannot do anything but move on and move out.

I'm sad about leaving. I'm gonna miss the people here in the office.... Mark, Roanna, Fitz, -members of our team who I believe were all true people, The AE's of Outcomm, not only my favorite Janelle, but all of them, Apple, Ms.Carol, Mina, Prue, Cyrus, Sir Joseph, Sir Troy, who is always smiling... ahaha I know I so love them,what can I do? haha. I'm gonna miss Lorna, the ever-reliable Lorna, the newbie, Paulo, the messengers who always buy me food once I can't go out... Kuya Luigi(haha) and everyone else.... Hay. I'm gonna miss them for sure.

This is why I hate goodbyes. Missing people that became part of my everyday routine really makes me sad.

But, come on there's no goodbyes really, for sure, we'll cross our paths again. Yeah right!

I don't want to make this entry more mushy, it might cause the tears, and I can't.

One thing for sure, no matter what has been the outcome, I'm not regretting anything as I believe, this taught me a very important lesson.