queen of pain

"Is it over yet
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry, cry"

Kelly Clarkson never fails.

excited about...

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damn excited for this movie: Oh of course Kate Hudson's a favorite!!!

Amanda is the newest Pinoy Sole Survivor

Just when i thought Survivor Philippines: Palau will have a bad ending when Mika was voted off courtesy of the Justine-Jef-Charles alliance and leaving Mika’s bff Amanda alone and almost hopeless..yesterday at the finale the sweetest and probably the best ending happened when Amanda was announced as the newest Pinoy Sole Survivor. Congrats Amanda!
Well, after Mika was voted off, Amanda became very emotional. She felt so alone and most importantly betrayed- betrayed by their friend Jef and the chameleon Charles who promised Mika that he will vote Jef out but actually did the opposite.

During the last immunity challenge wherein the condo unit was at stake Amanda looked so blank certainly because of her emotions and the time Paolo was explaining the challenge, tears actually fell from her eyes which made me think that Mika and their friendship was really her source of strength. However, I was so proud of her that even though she felt so hopeless, she still was able to think wisely. She talked to Jef and Charles causing a rift between the JJC alliance that made Justine mad like hell and thankfully making Jef realized she was wrong of turning back on Amanda and Mika.

When they reached the tribal council for the last elimination, Paolo Bediones called the members of the jury one by one and when he called Mika, she blew a kiss for Amanda and in a snap Amanda became all teary-eyed again probably remembering the fact that her BFF was now on the other side.

Then came the voting Amanda and Charles got two votes each that's why a tie-breaker was needed and that's a fire-making challenge. It was so nerve-wrecking, Charles was able to make a fire first but he wasn't succesful to completely burn the tie which Amanda did so she was declared the winner of the challenge and part of the Final 3.

Finally, the face off of the Final 3 and the members of the jury happened. They answered the questions the jury threw one by one. As expected Justine turned into her beauty pageant contestant-mode as she answered the questions thrown at her. However, I strongly believe that she was very inconsistent with her answers like when she said that she was just a good follower contradicting her answer at one point in the game wherein she said that she learned to be the captain of her own ship and that she will always be the captain. She also said outside life shall not be included but when Paolo asked her to tell who she is she was like "isa akong mabuting anak, mabait na kaibigan, etc etc." yeah right you just said outside life shall be out of the question. Well, on the other hand, Amanda answered the questions with all honesty but not enough to persuade the jury to vote for her. BUT when Mika's turn to do the questioning arrived everything changed which I believe made Amanda won. She told Amanda to tell her life and why she deserves to be the sole survivor which she knows already but the others don't. With this, Amanda knew that Mika's letting her talk to get the jury's vote and she took this opportunity to talk everything out and actually served as her final speech. It was very spectacular! Mika is really clever! She proved that her control for the game didn't end when she was voted off. She didn't just control the whole game up to the final 5 but also directed her BFF's winning shot/speech. Sigh. Mika is really my favorite! However, Amanda's win was also her win because she did made it possible. Mika-Amanda tandem is really really amazing!

Again, congratulations to Amanda for being the newest Pinoy Sole Survivor. It was indeed a sweet and probably the best ending! Survivor Philippines:Palau was unbelievably spectacular and a truly world-class!

saved.

Saved. Just in the nick of time. Thank God.

Drowning

I feel like I am drowning these days...
I don't know when will I be saved.
I don't know who could save me
and I don't know if I ever want to be saved.

However, I still have my faith.
I know one day while trying to learn to breathe under the water...
one hand will come to save me.

A hand who will just carry me and bring me to a safe place
and not just a mere bystander who will ask if I am drowning
or why am I drowning.

It is also possible that I can save myself
When I learned how to be strong
when I learned how to overcome my fear
and when I learned how to be brave.

For now, I am very scared.
But I'll try my best to survive.
I cannot shout for help for I am too weak
But, I'll wait for the right time to be saved.


I know it will be soon
I am hoping it will be tomorrow.

Jhaziri's funniest moments

Jhaziri is my cute inaanak/niece, a daughter of my cousin.... We're always playing.... We enjoy taking pictures... We love watching movies... We love to party haha and have a song and dance number... We love Starbucks and we love Krispy Kreme.... In short I really adore her..... I love her so much even though she would always say she loves my sister Lara more.

Well, it's kinda sad that she's back at their house already and attends her school there, but last week she stayed at our house and she had so many funny moments...

Here are some:

1. Jhaziri and her unbelievable wishes....
> When she's around we'd always go to SM and her favorite place is none other than Toy Kingdom... She'd always spend so much time looking for toys as if she haven't seen it...duh! As much as I can I always try to buy at least one toy for her.... So, everytime we're in SM, Ninang is the best for her, since my sister always gets mad if Jhaziri wish to buy toy. Last week, she was like "Ninang bili mo ko nito saka eto saka eto pa...."and I was like okay next time na yung iba sa birthday mo na ha.... Then she stopped or so I thought, then she followed-up with "Ninang bilhin mo yung buong SM sa birthday ko ha?" Jusme.....! Ano daw? Buong SM? haha



And the other day, we were asked by my mom to buy medicines at Mercury Drug, and of course Jhaziri didn't fail to see those chocolates, she asked me to buy her favorite Cadbury with matching "Ninang oh wouldn't it be nice if the world was cadbury?" then yeah right I bought of course... when we were at the counter she was like with her usual loud voice "Ninang pati na rin buong Mercury bilhin mo sa birthday ko ha?" Hala! Pati Mercury pa ngayon..
After she said that the guard and the lady at the counter were both laughing...

2. Jhaziri and her Optimus Prime, Megatron and many others

She loves watching cartoons and those cars and robots thingee.... and her current favorite is Transformers... everytime she sees a yellow car she would shout "hotshot" and she'll go on and on and on... So, last week we watched Transformers the movie and the moment those robots appeared she hysterically said "Ninang ayan na si Bumble bee etc etc......" I am not too familiar with Transformers as I haven't watch the 1st one so I was like okay...... She was really excited to watch. Then after a while she called me "Ninang" and almost teary-eyed and I was like "Bakit bebe?" Then she said "sinisipa nung bata ung upuan ko e" hahahaha funny! May be those kids got irritated with all her boasting that she knows those Transformers cast..... I told Jhaziri, e di sabihin mo wag sipain... she replied "eh anjan yung mommy nila baka awayin ako" haha!

3. Jhaziri and her tatlong zero....

She refers to the coin as pera and the paper bills as money..... One time she saw me with a thousand bill and I was like "Oh Jhaziri ang dami kong money oh tignan mo tatlo ung zero"..... From then on she would always say to my mom "Mamu penge money ung tatlong zero" When mom gives her 100pesos she would count and say "dalawa lang yung zero eh ung kay Ninang 3"... and one time we were watching a game show and the prize posted was like 1,000,000 and Jhaziri went so surprised with what she saw "Ninang............. (shouting) ang daming zero nun! " Haha naloka na!




4. Jhaziri and her pictures....
We love to take pictures but everytime she has pictures for school stuffs she would be shy and doesn't like to smile... Then, last week, she and her mom went out to have her taken her 2 x 2 picture for her school Id... before they leave I taught her how to smile in her picture and she was like "Ninang nakakalimutan ko e, sama ka na lang para maalala ko panu ung smile" haha I said "kaya mo yan bebe" .... and when they went home, I immediately asked "patingin ng picture baka di ka naka smile" and she said "Naku Ninang, napaka cute ng picture ko" ahahaha turns out her picture is really cute.... Love it! I asked one copy and she was like "oh Ninang ilagay mo sa wallet mo yan ha, wag mo iwawala, ang cute pa naman nyan" haha confident!

Lucky Tuesday

Last Saturday, I read in a magazine that Tuesday will be my lucky day and since then I'm so excited for Tuesday... and so here's the story.

Tuesday morning, I woke up around 10am, an hour earlier than usual.... The moment I opened my eyes I knew and felt it's gonna be my lucky day. Then, I decided to play some slots since it's my lucky day! haha.

After taking my bath, I dried my hair and felt like ironing it to have a super extra straight hair. I don't usually iron my hair on my own well come to think of it I never did, so I was like how many minutes will it take for this hair iron to heat up.... After a while, I tried it on my hair and it's not yet hot so I looked at it closely and saw the red button isn't on so I tried to fix it and voila I heard something popped or something and damn I felt my left thumb react from the excessive heat and as usual I screamed out loud. For crying out loud I don't want my hands to be burned noh! Gosh, I panicked and thought I will be electrocuted or something so I immediately took the plug out.
1. Lucky thing I'm naturally maarte that I didn't hold the hair iron with the whole of my hands or else I got my left palm all-burned up....eew! Now, I just have a little burn on my left thumb.

Before I went to play slots I had my lunch out first.... I saw this spicy-pork and mushroom on the menu and that's just about it, keyword spicy, so I ordered it. I was really excited to eat and when the food finally came, gosh it didn't taste good, at least not for me.

2. Lucky thing I had my favorite coke and at least that completed my lunch.

So, there I reached my destination, Manong Guard greeted me the usual "looking great today!" while inspecting my bag. I went straight to my favorite game - the Village People Party, the machine that I usually play in was not available that time so I settled for the other Village People Party machine..... hay the ending, I went out empty-handed, only money for my fare left. gosh!

3. Lucky thing, my atm card was with my sister and because of that I still have some moolah! Plus, I enjoyed the game, I still love those macho men after all....hahaha

On my way home, darn it was raining. I didn't have an umbrella because it's freaking hot when I left home. So there, I tried to keep my patience since I nearly reach the station.

4. Lucky thing, there's a good soul that offered me to share with his umbrella while crossing the street... coz the intersection was a little scary and I'm not really good at crossing streets, specially not during a freaking rain.

However, my destination is still two blocks away and the damn weather just didn't cooperate with me and actually poured more and more rain. The ending, I looked like I just took a shower, my clothes were dripping wet.

5. Lucky thing, when I reached home, there's no more rain and besides my clothes were already dry that time.

Hay. Lucky Tuesday huh? Whatever.